My name is Evan. I’m 33, a single dad. I fix networks for a living and make lists for fun.

It’s not just a hobby; it’s a survival mechanism. I know where every dollar goes. I can tell you the price of a gallon of milk in three different stores and which one restocks the 12-packs of juice boxes on Tuesdays.

My son, Leo, is 10. He loves Lego, hates olives, and thinks I’m a wizard because I can untangle HDMI cords without swearing. We live in a small rental house with a lean backyard and a grill I rescued from the curb.

My family—my mother, my sister Courtney, my brother Nate—lives 20 minutes away. In my head, that always meant we were close. It didn’t mean that.

The Saturday of Leo’s 10th birthday started simple. I’d hung blue streamers from the sagging fence. A massive Costco sheet cake sat on the folding table, the frosting proudly displaying “Leo: Level 10” in a pixelated font.

I’d rented one of those inflatable soccer goals, which was currently losing a slow battle with gravity, and set out six folding chairs I’d borrowed from our neighbor, Mrs. Petrov. Six of his classmates came, a whirlwind of neon shirts and sugar-fueled energy.

Our street smelled like sunscreen, charcoal from the grill I’d meticulously cleaned, and the faint, sweet scent of cheap frosting. And I kept checking my phone. The family group chat, “Dunbar Clan,” had been full of promises.

Mom: We’ll be there! Wouldn’t miss it for the world! My sister, Courtney: Of course!

Aunt CoCo’s bringing party favors! My brother, Nate: Will roll through after the gym, bro. I lined up little water bottles on the porch rail like soldiers.

I taped a trash bag to the fence so the yard wouldn’t look like a landfill. I am a man of systems. Every 20 minutes, I checked the chat.

Nothing. Just my own “Grill is hot!” message from an hour ago, sitting there with its lonely “Delivered” receipt. When the pizza arrived at 1:30 PM, I told the driver, “Could you wait just a second?” I was staring at the street, imagining a line of cars pulling up, my mother’s sedan, Courtney’s trendy SUV, Nate’s leased truck.

I’d need to add one more large pepperoni. The driver, a kid barely 20, looked over my shoulder at the tiny crowd of 10-year-olds. “You’re good, man,” he said, handing me the boxes with a look of pity I despised.