I was nine months pregnant, feeling as massive and clumsy as a blimp. Yet beneath all the discomfort simmered a quiet excitement – the combination of fear and wonder that comes with knowing you’re about to meet your baby. But today, that warmth was destr0yed under a rising tide of anxiety.
We were driving to my mother-in-law’s birthday party. My relationship with Sharon, my husband Greg’s mother, could have been a case study in veiled hostility. She’d never liked me – a shy girl from a blue-collar family, marrying her “gifted, college-educated” son.
In her mind, I was simply not enough. Still, Greg insisted we go. “Leah, if we don’t show up, Mom will lose it,” he said.
“You know how she is.”
Oh, I knew. Sharon was the kind of woman who demanded life bend to her will and it usually did. The car hummed along the icy Wisconsin highway, the landscape nothing but an endless sheet of white.
Snowbanks rose like frozen waves on either side of the road. Despite the heater blowing full blast, I shivered. Then, suddenly, a sharp, twisting sensation gripped my abdomen, stealing my breath.
“He’s moving a lot today,” I said softly. Greg only grunted, his gaze fixed ahead. I told myself it was just work stress – his engineering job at the plant was demanding but deep down, I knew something had altered.
Then it occured. A sudden pop inside me, followed by a warm gush. My breath caught.
“Greg,” I said, my voice trembling, “I think… my water just broke.”
He slammed the brakes so hard the car twitched violently, sliding to a stop on the shoulder of the deserted highway. “What? Now?
You’re kidding me, right?” His voice wasn’t anxious and it was furious. “I’m serious,” I wheezed as another contraction started to build. “Greg, we have to get to the hospital, please!”
He turned to me, his face twisting with cold anger.
“You did this on purpose, didn’t you?”
For a second, I couldn’t even comprehend what he meant. “What? No!
The baby’s coming, Greg! I can’t handle this!”
“You should have thought of that before!” he muttered. “You knew how crucial today was for my mother!
She’s been preparing this for months, and you just couldn’t help destr0ying it!”
“Greg, this is your child! He decides when to come, not me. Please, help me!”
But instead of helping, he got out of the car and slammed the door.
“Greg, what are you doing?” I said. He pulled out my hospital bag – the one I had lovingly packed weeks ago and threw it into the snow. “Get out,” he said flatly.
“You’ve already made me late. Figure it out yourself.”
“Greg, please, no!” I cried. “Don’t do this!
You can’t leave me!”
He didn’t even look at me. He got back in the car, began the engine, and glared through the windshield. “My mother comes first,” he said coldly.
“She raised me. You’re just my wife.”
For a long, agonizing moment, I couldn’t move. If I stayed, I would di:e here.
My baby would di:e here. I forced myself forward, inch by inch, praying for a miracle. And then, through the blur of snow and darkness, I saw headlights.